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[14 Jun 2005|12:17pm] |
yo! dont really feel like writing, but hey! just wanted to let everyone know im alive and that ill be a mommy soon.
peace out for now!
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[25 Feb 2005|02:15pm] |
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well, today looks like its going to be quiet interesting. hopefully everything goes smooth man, thats really all i want is a cool smooth day. dont have to worry about people in their fucking ways, just wanna chill and be cool an laid back today!
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[24 Feb 2005|09:31am] |
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im back home until sunday! which is simone b-day yall. the 17th is heathers, all yall hiefs are getting old. i must say that i miss everyone with a mad passion. my issues only seem to be getting worse, but in due time they always seem to ease themselfs out. well i guess thats good enough ya know?
im just waiting on that right big depression to come in take me along the way.
maybe ill drown into something good.
i manage to get a tatt on my left arm in chinese(it means love).
yah, got me a boyfriend that i love deeply, although my babe is
kinna out there sometimes. suppose to me getting married in stuff
think thats going to take some more time! if funny cause im the
one that brought it up.
thats it for now, peace!
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[23 Dec 2004|08:33am] |
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well....its been awhile since i have updated. alot of things has been going on since the last time! my uncle has manage to kick me out of his house, so but thats just the begining. now im staying with a very good friend of mine an her family, and may i say that i am very happy over here. so im cool, cause i have people who care about me,so yes they have to become my own family aswell. well its just two days away from christmas, taday is thursday! so im whishing everyone a merry christmas!!
peace.....
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[09 Nov 2004|11:07am] |
Well ......
I'm still in Rialto,and it fucking sucks out here ,I've been going to school
Had a job but I quit because I couldn't keep up my school work at the same time so now I'm more focused on school scence I started on my new Independent study out here in Rialto, If it wasn' for me trying to graduate
Iwouldn't give a fuck about school or any-thing else,
Scence my dad has passed things seem to have gotten much worse,but I'm hangging in there like I usaly do, Because I'm a surviver.
Thats basicly it Weed has been my best friend
to those who know me personaly my number has been changed.....
Now I have a new number out here in Rialto my own line
its (909)875-4502kind of forgot that I had even owned a live journal
scence I have written it. I just had to occupy my self
with my PS2 and my fighting games,
even that seems like its missing somthing,...
Well thats about it for now I'll writewhen I have the time to.
And like always your comments are always welcome
Laters
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[21 Aug 2004|02:37pm] |
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well, hey im back but for not that long though. i just wanted to see how everyone is doing thats all. well see ya soon bye!
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[21 Jul 2004|01:17pm] |
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can things seem to get any worse right now god?
my dads funeral is going to be on august forth, my b-day. yea, so thats going to be a day for me right there. im trying to not break down right now, i think ill save that for the funeral. i dont know what else to say right now, cause everytime i think about it ill start crying. even though crying wont bring my dad back to me, it saves me from somethings.
i hate to even be typing right now, but i am. i just wish god would not have taken my dad before he could see me turn 18. i wish i could of look him in the eye,held his hand and told him that i love him more than anything on this earth. regardless of all our fights and curse words said and things that were done! because you cant keep dwelling on the past. but if i could take my dads place right now i would, but then again i know my dad wouldn't want that to happen. i want to say hes in a better place but im not. cause its true, but i just wish i was alot older and that those words being said, i could take them in alot easier.
i just feel like vanishing for, the rest of my life. i just............i feel like i lost my best friend. i know i will never recover, cause its hard right now to except the fact that my dads gone. i should just let go, of everything. but i cant do that cause i know there are things that still need to be done.
-brandi jonea arae bryant
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[19 Jul 2004|12:40am] |
this is kinna hard to be writing on here................but my dad has passed... he died today at 5:00 today at cedar sinine hospital.
im hurt, i dont know what to do right now. my world is lost, and im confused right now. i feel like dying myself. but little do i know, i already am inside. im dealing with this the best way i can.
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[13 Jul 2004|02:29pm] |
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well alot's been going on. ill be moving this month on the 31 of july, and im going to moving in with keisha. im kinna surprised that her mom she said yes! an its also kinna hard to believe that im moving in with one of my best friends at that, but i am looking foward to it though i guess. i just wanna be closer to stuff thats all, and to my dad. i mean i could go up north in all ware my aunt is but i dont wanna do that at all. im just worried on ware my mom is going to go thats all, but ill all end up working out though, so its cool. you gotta have faith in some things i guess, and think positive to. but yea there it is.
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[04 Jul 2004|06:53pm] |
hey people sorry if i have not updated in a while, but ive been kinna busy.
just wanted to check in an say happy forth of july!
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[22 Jun 2004|06:49pm] |
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today seems kinna slow today,and....................more slow. i dont know hopefully ill end up speeding up or something, ive been over my friends house for the last couple of days things have been on an off balance.
hmmmmm.......as im typing this it seems that my hands or even more slower than what they were in the first place. im starting to see pretty rainbows in all type of scary ass shite! could this be the end or the...........neverending end?
grrrrrrrr!!!
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[22 Jun 2004|01:29am] |
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man these last couple of days has been really cool, and funny! but at the same time crazy, i dont know......my bones hurt an are sore! i feel like i have been working out everyday or something. i feel good though, despite of other things that has happen/has been going on lately, i still feel..........like theres something missing. but eventually things will end up turning out to be good\bad again. i dont know its like an on going cycle now with this thing. i feel dead but alive at the same time.
maybe its just, that my thoughts are not all there. maybe im just mad right now because, things that are going well for other people right now, are not going good for me! wow thats pretty lame huh? but just because i have those feelings doesn't mean im a bad person. i mean i am human, and i also have emotions to exspress at the same time. i would like to not feel like im always being stepped on by people, and stop always being there for people when there not for you. it hurts but at the sametime im healing from it. well hopefully this summer ill have more time to get things togethere, and have the things happen that i would like to happen.
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[17 Jun 2004|09:02pm] |
im sick of you trying to defind me as something else
im sick of you trying to put things in my face
im sick of you trying to break me an bring me down with all your shit
im sick of you treating me like i have no soul, inside its burning out slow.
would you tell this to friend
would you tell this to a family member
would you still feel the same even if you talked about it?
im sick of my smiles, smiles that decieve me.
im sick of you correcting me
im sick of you always having something intellegent to say, but never walk what you talk
im sick of feeling these pressured feelings
im sick of believing what you say to me!
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[17 Jun 2004|02:24pm] |
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something feels like it's missing right now, i dont know what it is, but.........yea. its like i should be doing something right now! but dont know what it is. i feel like there is still, bullshit in the air for some reason. but at the same time, there something else thats about to come right from around the corner man....its like i dont know if its good or bad yah?
well, imma go an get my mind situated on some lyrics!
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[16 Jun 2004|09:21pm] |
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well im not feeling so good right now, my head is kinna killing me right now. so ummm......yea.
but besides that i am kinna happy though, and kinna mad. my sis is starting to piss me off, shes calling here with her issues in stuff. i dont know whats going to go on for this summer ya know? hopefully ill turn out to be really cool.
AND HOPEFULLY THINGS GO COOL WITH THIS HOLE LITTLE LIKEING STIUATION. IM NOT GOING TO PUT HIM ON BLAST LIKE HE DID ME, CAUSE IM ALOT NICER!!! THANK YOU VERY MUCH!!
but yea i think im going to go in visit my daddy in the hospital! i dont wont him to just give up, then ill be really heart broken. i would want my dad to know that i love him to much, and that i would die for him!
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[15 Jun 2004|10:40pm] |
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thanks chick, and i love you!
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[15 Jun 2004|03:35pm] |
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i said something, about a friend that i should of never had said, if anything i should of told her how i was feeling instead of saying something about her i didn't mean. but dont we all make some fucked up mistakes? heather i am truly sorry about everything.
and if you dont forgive me then theres nothing i can do about that. im going through things that im trying to cope with right now k, and your not the only one i've said something bad about
(having time to gather my thoughts). im not going to lie i dont know how to take whats going on, but im trying and theres only so much i can do before i start to break. an no im not a two facestead friend at all. i dont feel guilty i feel sad, and out of place. ill be back on my feet in a while just not right now.
i feel like i have nothing right now, but just when you think there is no one here with you, it always is. an even from the unexspected people you thought that didn't care at all. im sorry to myself for being the type of person i turned out to be, im sorry to mom for hurting her and putting my hands on her, im sorry to my dad(for at times i wasint the best daughter), im sorry to all of my friends for if i ever said\ had said something bad about you all, im sorry for if at times i have been a bad friend towards everyone.
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[14 Jun 2004|08:34pm] |
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i feel crushed right now, dont know why though just am!
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